It feels like it’s been ages since I wrote one of these. For those of you that are new around here, I’m part way through an experiment that I started at the beginning of the year. As someone known for being ‘anti-woo’ I decided to become more ‘woo adjacent’ by being open to anything spiritual for one year only, just to see what could happen.
It’s not been easy to stop the cynic in me. The cynic is very strong! If you want to catch up on the story so far, then you can on this blog.
So I’m going to be completely honest with you. The reason I haven’t written for a month or so is because some really strange things have been happening and I honestly don’t know how to explain it.
I thought about just not telling you so that I seem less crazy, but as this is an experiment, it feels wrong not to be honest about it all! Don’t worry, I haven’t seen ghosts or anything (I especially never want to see little girl ghosts as they are obviously the scariest).
If you’re in my membership you’ll know that I have had this weird thing many times before where I feel like I just know what someone needs, and sometimes I write it down, and I feel like I don’t really know exactly where it’s come from or how I know what they need. I’ve often just thought it’s because I’m really intuitive and can read people well – nothing to do with anything woo but more psychologically aware of people in some way. Maybe it was my lawyers training, I don’t know!
An example of this would be if I was doing a mastermind hotseat and someone is saying they can’t be visible because they’re worried about what people think, I’ll instinctively know it’s because of a particular person – their mother, for example. So I’ll ask “is there a particular person that you’re worried will judge you?” And they might say maybe. I’ll then tentatively say “is it perhaps your Mum?’’ or whoever I’ve had this feeling it might be and they might then break down and cry and say that it IS their Mum they are worried about and how did I know.
And I don’t know how I know, but I have just assumed I can just tell by their body language or my own intuition or something but haven’t thought too much about it. It feels the same as when I tell people the business they should have or what the next step is in their business. It’s just a strong feeling and when I have that type of feeling, it’s just always been right.
So, since the last diary entry I sent you, here’s how it all started to get odd. And not quite so easily explained.
In January, I had a dinner at my house with some of my closest business friends. It was all about setting our intentions for the year, and it was really fun and a little bit on the more woo side. I won’t go into the actual specifics of the rituals and practices we did, but it was fun and not so woo that it scared me off!
But the very next day, things kind of went up a notch. I don’t really know the best way to explain it, but I wrote down this really long thing on a piece of paper. I just felt like I really needed to write it. It was messaging for a business.
But when I stopped, I read it and didn’t really understand it. It certainly wasn’t messaging for MY business.
I was so confused and there was only one word in it that kept standing out. Intuition. I only know one person whose business is about intuition, and so I sent it to her and said ‘does this mean anything to you?’
And she was stunned. She said she had been trying to work on her messaging that day and what I had written was what she needed! She actually swore on a voicemail to me as she was a bit shocked, and she never swears!
Anyway, I decided to ignore it but then it kept happening. Sometimes just a couple of paragraphs I’d write down that sounded like a piece of advice on what someone should do.
But I didn’t know who it was even supposed to be for! If it was woo, I just thought that whoever was sending me these woo messages were just a bit crap at it because I couldn’t do anything with them. Perhaps it was the panda or Michael Jackson (see earlier diary!)
I decided to confide in my membership and one of the more spiritual people told me that next time it happens just ask who it is for.
I really didn’t want to. I knew that asking out to loud to nobody who it was for was going to make me feel like a ridiculous crazy idiot but I did it anyway.
A week later I wrote down 3 sentences. It meant nothing to me at all. I had no clue what it was supposed to mean or what to do with it. I started to think (and still do think a bit) that I’m just making it up somehow.
But I asked out loud who it was for and as clear as day a face came into my head but it was hazy. It was at a bar I’d been at a month earlier chatting to someone I didn’t know very well.
I asked Shelly who I had been talking to at the bar a month earlier at the social and as soon as she started naming people, I knew who the face belonged to. She has given me permission to tell you it was Cara Billingham.
Next step. How to send someone a weird message without sounding like you’ve had too much Bacardi breezer.
I was just honest and asked her if she wanted it. As I didn’t know what it could mean it felt like consent was needed.
She said yes straight away, and so I sent it, and she sent me a message straight back saying she had been trying to make a decision all day about something, and I’d just told her exactly what to do without even realising it!
Since then, it’s happened about 10 more times and I haven’t liked some of what I’ve written, so I’ve decided to ignore those but have given the nice ones to the people if I know who it is. There are 3 that I don’t know who they are for, so I’m ignoring those too. If it is some weird messenger spirits telling me they are going to need to be more specific should they wish for me to be their employee.
I find the entire thing very weird and am trying not to think about it too much because it boils down to 2 things:
I’m making it up in my head and that might mean I am losing it.
I am not making it up in my head and that is much scarier than losing it.
So we’ll ignore that part of things for a while and see if it goes away!
The second thing I wanted to share that is more fun is this:
Before my launch, I had told my team that the market is tricky at the moment and that I thought we would not hit £1m this launch and to plan to launch again in October.
At the same time, just before we started launching, I thought I’d do a little experiment just for this diary purpose and made a video of me putting a piece of paper under my crystal money tree that I was given. As I put it under I said ‘I want to make this amount or more please’.
It was a ridiculous amount on purpose. There’s no point doing a test unless it’s a bit out there!
See below the video where it says £2.5k.
We made £2.9k.
Make of that what you will!
Tomorrow is my hardest test yet for these diaries. Sam and I are going on a week long health retreat that is full of all things woo! Plus tiny morsels of food that I won’t like and no alcohol, so it’s going to be an adventure. When I told people I was going, they thought it was an April Fools!
You aren’t really allowed phones, but I’m going to sneak onto mine every evening to tell you what’s happened that day. Go follow me on Instagram here as I’ll do it on stories.
Until next time!
Lisa
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